My life

I Will Not Forget You...

2009-11-09T19:03:00.000-08:00

i nv will forget u cuz i reli reli love u so much than b4. so u will nv able run away frm me. u might think tat im too crazy bout u. but im nt juz i cant forget u n love u so much...i reli love u.....love u forever

--Very Bored Ar--

2009-10-02T01:14:00.000-07:00

very bored ar..started working liaw...

Feeling so happy....

2009-09-20T02:33:00.000-07:00

im reli reli so happy..im so free frm relationship n dun nid to think bout it..haiz..mayb i nt yet the time to hv a relationship yt..hehe

well nthg much to say here..tats all lor..^^

What is that Feeling??

2009-09-15T23:41:00.000-07:00

What kind is that FEELING? Not that FEELING AGAIN huh? But nevermind...because i dont care what is that feeling. That Feeling will never happen again..never forever. Well thats all i just wana to say here nthg much..x3

Fuck it Man

2009-09-15T00:37:00.000-07:00

Wtf going on my facebook email?? y i cant log in eventho the damn email n password is correct..Fuck u Facebook u making me so burn up...did i do anything wrong to u facebook?? huh...

Im Waiting You On9 Everynite....)':

2009-09-12T20:48:00.000-07:00

i was waiting you to on9 very nite. dunno why i must wait you. eventho i knw u wont on9. but mayb u on9 on the other acc n trying to not for me to knw u r on9. but nvm i juz keeps on waiting n waiting cuz i dun mind waiting. mayb u say im stupid doing tis. haha. dunno la..up to u la say me anything. haha.but seriously i dun mind wat u say. hehe.xD

Ps. if u read this u must b knw wat i feeling actually. mayb u dun know. but let me tell u. im so sad keeps on waiting u but i dunno y i keeps on waiting eventho im sad. i juz find out i doing tis cuz i so trully love u. u might think tat i kidding so watever. but seriously wat i say is true cuz i had change not to lie to u but b4 i oso din ever lie on u. i dun wan lie to u...i wan to tell u everything in truth so i dun wan to lie...

I love you...v...please knw tat i trully love you..<3..love u always...
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and ku tak bisa jauh darimu atau kau tingaalkan aku...kau tau bila kau jauh atau tinggalkanku. hidupku mcm dah mati, hidupku tak ada kegembiraan tapi ada kesengsaran dan kesedihan, hidupku semua jadi kegelapan....ku harap kau jgn jauh dari ku atau tinggalkan aku....

Fall For You Tonight Again..Who? Its You, V

2009-09-12T09:27:00.000-07:00

The best thing 'bout tonight's that we're not fighting. Could it be that we have been this way before? I know you don't think that I am trying. I know you're wearing thin down to the core. But hold your breath. Because tonight will be the night. That I will fall for you over again. Don't make me change my mind. Or I won't live to see another day. I swear it's true. Because a girl like you is impossible to find. Yes you're impossible to find. This is not what I intended. I always swore to you I'd never fall apart. You always thought that I was stronger. I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start. So breathe in so deep. Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep. And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap. And remember me tonight when you're asleep.

What happen to you today?

2009-09-11T09:32:00.002-07:00

I was keep asking you what wrong and why you dont want to reply. Is it hard to say? Or you just want to keep by yourself?? Please dont do that. Its not a gud habit. I know you like emo but please dont always keep ur problems in your heart. Well all i want to say is please share me whatever problems with me.

I was thinking of you

2009-09-10T09:33:00.000-07:00

Just now afternoon around 4.35pm. I was having a nice afternoon nap. Do you know why i say a nice afternoon nap? Because i was thinking about you. You are always so beautiful in my mind. I was thinking how we meet each other. How we chat, how we enjoys our friendship at start...

That time i never expect that you ask me that question.." are you single??" Haha. Really never expect that. I was thought that you were joking..but then i make a decision..i wana try to fall in love with you. Guess what...i really fall in love with you three days after we love each other. But then after many days goes on i feel strange. I feel you like started dont like me. Maybe i think too much. Or maybe its true. That why sometimes i was asking you are you truely loving me. You say "yes..but not really because im still studying and i dont love makes me not concentrating in my studies." Well i understand about that. Then you say why dont you wait me finish my school first..it wont be long time to wait...just wait for 5-6 years. Wow..5-6 years?? Well times is not a problem for me. I can wait for 5-6 years..really i mean it. I really can wait for that long times. do you know why?? Because i really love you so much from the bottom of my heart. Everyday i was keep thinking what will happen after 5-6 years. But i dont mind what will happen...even after 5-6 years...i dare to tell you...i still love you but much more than before i love you. I was wandering if that time you still remember me or not....

Here i just want to tell you that i dont really like that girl so much. I like that girl just a tiny tiny feeling only. I dont know how to say..but its really hard to say. Telling the truth is my way. I dont really like to lie. And i dont even lie something on you. Telling you what, that day before i going to kl. You tell me that you had fall in love to a guy..although i do angry but i dont mad of you. I say about you fall in love a guy not i want to compare. I just wanted you to understand me more. And i also wanted to understand you more but i dont know why i cant. You never share all your sadness, happiness and other else to me. You seems doesnt really trusted on me. But i puy all my trust on you....

Please dont angry me anymore. I promise my mistake that i made will not going to happen forever untill the day i died. I not trying to say stupid promise because what i promise i will always hold it and never break the promise that i had made. Do you know that you are the only girl in my mind and makes me happy everytime when i think of you? Do you know that??? Do you?? Im not saying that im crazy over you..i know you dont like i crazy over you. And seriously im not crazy over you but loving you.

I love you always...<3

Wat Kind Of Dreams is tis???

2009-09-10T00:33:00.000-07:00

Today i dream a nightmare bout you. It was so horrible, scary n cruel. THE DREAMS IS LIKE THIS
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I was dream me and Zack going to your school. Zack was decided to find "sumone" and i was wanted to find you. When i saw you, i was so happy. Both of we chat so happy. Suddenly Zack say hey when did you two ok? Suddenly your face changed and you say" ya i almost forget what you told me on that day Daniel!!" I was so shocked that you still remember what i told you on that day..then you keep angry me. Then i keeps on say sorry about it and explain it to you. But you dont listen..when you turn your head to the road. You saw a big truck coming then you purposely push me to the road..guess what happend? An accident had happen..i hurt so badily..bleeding alot of blood. Then without i trying to ask you why you do this to me...i died..
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STILL IN DREAMS..ANOTHER DREAM...
I was walking on a street with a tiny light surround by me. That time, i feel so lonely...suddenly i saw something far away. I walk closer to see what is it. A human..wearing a black long cloat with a hood on it..I then look closer. It was you. You put down your hood and smile with me. But that smile wasnt a sweet smile. And i was wandering why you wear a black glasses. When you took away your glasses, your eyes was so EVIL full of FEAR and ANGER. I feel so scared in a sudden. You came closer to me,closer you came the more i feel your fear and anger. Without a word you pull out a knife from behind you. You straight away stab right to my heart. Ya right to my heart. But i dont feel the pain. Why i dun feel the pain?? Wasnt that when people got the feeling of pain? But why i dont feel it?? You keep on stabbing on me. The more you stab the more you like it. You stops. You look your hands cover with my blood..and suddenly you stand up and laugh like a BAD EVIL witch. I so breathless..i getting hard to breathe. Before i closed my eyes..i saw your face changed. You are dripping your tears. You like regret what you had just done and you kneel beside me and keeps on dripping your tears. I then put my hand on your face..and u holds my hand so tight untill i died....

Then i wake up from that horrible and cruel and sad dreams. I was sweating alot. I was blank at the time i wake up. Then i was thinking what kind of dreams is this. Is it a bad dreams? Is anything bad gonna happend to me?? now i still have no answer what kind of dreams is that....

Im So happy...

2009-09-09T09:50:00.000-07:00

Today me, zack n fera chat. chat lot of stuff. tis n tat. haha. although sumtimes zack lyk to jokes n witout think wat he joking about. bt sumtimes its so funny. all of us so happy. especially fera..she totally happy than me. u knw why..cuz she when she chat wit zack, she would b heartbeating vry fast. haha. hw fast?? dun ask me. better ask her. hehe. one more thing ard 12.45am when zack wana sleep..he giv fera a kiss icon. haha. tat kiss icon makes fera melted n heartbeating more n more faster than usual lyk 180 heartbeat in a minutes...haha. well tat wont b a normal heart beat. hehe. do u knw y she heart beat so damn fast?? well it so obvious..don tell me u dun knw y..haha.

BESIDES TAT..WHILE I WAS HAPPY I OSO GOT A LITTLE FEELING OF SAD. SAD BOUT WAT..I SAD BOUT U. CUZ I HEARD U TELL ZACK U DUN LIKE ME. HAHA. OUCH...TAT RELI HURTS ME ALOT BUT THX TO ZACK N FERA FOR SUPPORTING ME..HAHA. AFTER DEY TRYING TO CALM ME DOWN I FEEL MUCH BETTER ALTHOUGH MY HEART FEEL SO MANY PINS POKE ON MY HEART BT I DUN SCARE OF THE PAIN. CUZ I HAD USE TO IT FOR SO LONG. TIS IS NT A NEW THINGS TOME..HAHA. WELL TATS ALL FOR TODAY FREN...GUDNITE..SWEETDREAMS YA...

Im sory...09.09.09

2009-09-09T07:22:00.000-07:00

Today i saw ur fs say u nid some times n u wan me leave u alone. i tot i did leave u alone..or mayb cuz i send u testi in ur comment n u thk tat i was nt giving u some times?? well if u thk tat way..i hv nthg to say bt sry. i knw i say sry is useless bt i only can say tat. u knw i was so blaming myself after i tell u bout i lyk a gal in kl. nt for blaming myself to tell u bout tat. i blaming myself y i hv such kind of feeling to tat gal...i was trying explain to u bt i cant cuz tat time u off9...all i can do knw is juz wait the times...tat all i can do..

i better explain in here..well hell ya tat time i lyk tat gal..wat to say..she pretty..bt ofcuz nt pretty than u..at the first time i saw her i got nt feel. after knowing her suddenly i feel i miss her when she nt ard..at last i found out myself i lyk her...untill 1 day i ask myself y do i lyk tat gal...wasnt tat i lyk n love u more than i lyk her..den nxt day i started nt to chat too much wif her to get rid frm getting more worse...so days after days the feeling i lyk tat gal is slowly been fade n i started more n more missing u. do u knw missing sum1 in 3 mnths hw was tat feel..do u knw?? it was so horrible..it was so bad..each days started thinking of u i feel wana run away frm tat training..bt if i do so i will end up in jail n after jain i nid to start it frm begining. so i fight it for our love..i try to sms u bt u jz reply me 3 sms onli...when the nxt day i sms , u nt replying me. i started feel bad..i started miss u so much..so much den u miss me. i cant sleep everynite...everynite i would b walking ard n thking wat u doing for everyday. thinking if u got sick o nt..bad mood o nt...sum1 bully u o nt...n many more..

nw i had finish the training...i so excited..i wana to go bak brunei so early n wana meet u n hold ur hands tight n say i love u...n make u happy...bt nw...u angey wit me..i dunno wat will happen tmr or the nxt day n nxt nxt nxt day...haiz...hope nthg bad to b happen la..

today i oso heard tat u started dun lyk me anymore n feel wana break wit me...i doesnt care bout it...i dun wan to knw tat such things...the things i wan to knw is i still love u n no matter wat i still going to love u till the ends od tis world...u r my tickets to live untill the world ends...u r my soul for nw n forever....i love u forver..............love u forever..

Im waiting...09.09.09

2009-09-09T07:02:00.000-07:00

Today i saw ur fs say u nid some time n y don i leave u alone..i did leave u alone ryte..bt mayb nt..mayb bcuz u thk i comment u mean tat i dun giv u some space? well if u thk tat way..Im so sorry. i knw i say sry is no use bt i reli say sry wit my heart. tat day i say i ever lyk a gal in kl is i feel so gulity bout it n i dun to hide it inside me...so i tell u. i was tot tat u will juz say..i dun tat happen again o something else. instead of tat u get jelousy n angry wit me. i wana explain to u more bt u tat time is off9..i thk...cuz u nt replying me...evn u reply me juz "...". tats all u reply me...